part of me

your kisses sweet, sweeter than wine
tongue dripping with honey, a taste so divine
your body a fountain, how i long to drink my fill
this thirst for you i cannot quench, my need for you unreal
you invite me to your garden, your bounty mine to take
like a beast for you my hunger swells, my lust i cannot slake
tell me you love me, don't make my heart bleed
tell me you want me, on your desire let me feed
the more i taste the more i want, i'm addicted to you now
cant live without you if i tried, you've become part of me somehow

good morning

under the covers i'm holding you tight
as were gently awakened by the new mornings light
your sleepy eyes are shining, your face is aglow
when i look at you my angel i want you to know
the love that you feel for me is made very clear
you softly kiss my lips as i draw you near
love we are making with the rising of the sun
our hearts beat as one as the new days begun
the birds outside our window sing for us a serenade
we lay smiling in each others arms after the love that we have made
i know that you're an angel, that GODS sent you here to me
i know that here by you side is where i'm supposed to be
i hope you know how much i love you, life with you a better place
as i spend my mornings here beside you wrapped up in your embrace

i love you

your are my angel, my dreams have finally come true
everything i've ever hoped for, i've found it here in you
my wants, my needs, your my one desire
you have taken my soul and you've set it on fire
you are so amazing, you take my breath away
i try to tell you how i feel, but my words just cant convey
my darling you mean the world to me, these words i pen are true
so glad to have you in my life, my sweet angel i love you

how can i live without you

how can i live without you
can the earth live without the warmth of the sun
the pull of the moon
you are every beat of my heart
every breath that i take
my days are filled with thoughts of you
my nights consumed by sweet dreams
a lifetime spent with you would only leave me wanting more
when I'm hungry, you feed me
when i thirst, i drink you in
your my angel, my heart, my soul
how can i live without you

higher place

your love takes me to a higher place
a place alone i could never go
a place that knows no time or space
where together our two hearts can grow
where we can fly high with the angels
set our sails towards the sun
in your love i am entangled
what a sweet web for me you've spun
i cant wait for tomorrow
hope this night will never end
you washed away all of my sorrow
into the depths of love we descend
leaving me only wanting more
falling deeper everyday
angel of one thing i am sure
in your arms is where i'll stay

passions flame

how i long to touch you, to be touched by you
to sell my soul but for the promise of one kiss from your sweet lips
to be engulfed by your passions flame
your eyes enchant me, like mystical portals beckoning me towards heavens gates
the smell of your body more beautiful than any perfume this world has ever known
the taste of your skin, the gods themselves have never feasted on a banquet more glorious
your voice like that of some siren promising untold pleasures
to feel you trembling beneath me, our bodies intertwined
to hear you moan as i enter your forbidden garden
to gaze into your eyes as you give yourself over to rapture
these thoughts fill my every waking hour
my lust for you consumes my dreams
woman whats this spell you've cast over me
loose me from these chains that bind me so

beguiled

pretty nymph dancing in the night so fair
moon rains down kisses on your lovely hair
eyes crystal waters calling my out name
my heart is no match and is quickly made tame
your skin awash in the skies pinkish light
beguiled by your beauty, the very stars delight
in the dark it grows silent, peaceful and serene
fireflies bow low, paying homage to their queen
enchantress, seductress, whats this spell that you weave
ensnared in your web, am i never to leave
for one night in your arms my soul i would sell
in my desire for you my passions flame swell
a kiss from your lips still wet on my tongue
i awake from this dream before its begun

you call to me

you call to me, bid me come inside, to hold you in my arms
i have no choice, swimming in your eyes, enraptured by your charms
all reason gone, i know nothing else, all i think about is you
this cant be wrong, in you i loose myself, my desire i cant subdue
to feel your touch my body burns, a fire i cant contain
this longing too much, for you i yearn, lust to strong for me to tame
lost in this pleasure, ensnared by your kiss, you've made my soul your own
this love cant be measured, this moment pure bliss, on my knees i worship at your throne

each day deeper

each day deeper in love with you i fall, my heart consumed in your passions flame
in my desire for you my longing swells, upon my heart you've carved your name
a lifetime spent inside your arms would only leave me wanting more
i will always be here by your side my angel of that you can be sure
how much do i love you, i cant begin to count the ways
with all that i am im yours until the ending of my days

two hearts collide

tonight we dance in each others arms
the moonlight bathes us in its glow
my head is spinning, enchanted by your charms
our bodies swaying to and fro
passion builds, to be closer we yearn
driven on by this need that we feel inside
skin on fire, in our desire we burn
our love spilled out, two hearts collide

stronger

when i look into your eyes i can see the pain that you feel
i only wish that i could convince you that my love for you is real
you've been lied to so many times before, its hard to let me in your heart
to take another chance on love, for you to make another start
i promise not to let you down, leave you broken , make you cry
each day you will see that i love you more, only growing stronger as time goes by

i run

i run to you with open arms
with my song i lift you high
captivated by your charms
these things i feel i cant deny
my love for you encompasses all
my heart now held in your hand
each day deeper in love with you i fall
oh how i hope you understand
to me you are my everything
my dreams have all come true
into my life what joy you bring
cant wait to share each day with you

for you : )

you call to me, into your open arms i fall
throw myself into your flame, for you forsaking all
i cannot think, i cannot breath without you by my side
your hold on me, so complete, like the moon upon the tide
trapped so deep inside your web, more tangled every day
senses numb, all control gone, over my heart you now hold sway
tell me you love me, tell me a lie, your sweet voice all i want to hear
thoughts of you consume me night and day, i am yours that much is clear
angel, devil, lover, my queen, at your feet i lay me down
for you i cry, i bleed, i die, i was lost but in your love i'm found

dreaming of you : )

lying naked by the fire, kiss each other soft and slow
in its heat our passion builds, our bodies bathing in its glow
tracing every curve, every secret place, for each others touch we crave
hands roam freely, hungry mouths, to our desires we are made slave
to the rhythm of our pounding hearts, in this dance our bodies yearn
closer, deeper, inhibitions gone, in each others arms we burn

beneath your wings

from the world i hide inside your love
your love it keeps me safe and warm
an angel sent to me from up above
beneath your wings i ride out all life's storms
in your eyes i find such hope and peace
in them your love for me made clear
in your arms my worries they all cease
all my troubles seem to disappear
you are my love, my heart, my soul
you are everything to me
my angel i wanted you to know
at your side is where i'll always be

forever true

you are an answer to my prayers
my dreams came true when i found you
all my hopes were realized when i saw you there
my broken heart made whole, my soul renewed
from that moment you washed away my cares
turned my dark and stormy skies to blue
no more wandering lost in my despair
a brand new beginning, our love forever true

my only truth

i place my heart there in your hands
i want you love to understand
that to me you are my everything
till the day i die of you i'll sing
peel back the layers of my soul
for there my love will clearly show
gaze for a moment in my eyes
it will come to you as no surprise
you are the air i breath, my only truth
place your hand in mine, you'll have your proof
my lips long but to speak your name
my eyes your beauty will proclaim
you are everything i've wanted, always leave me wanting more
for your love my heart is knocking, wont you open up your door

the reason

carried in my heart both night and day
with mere words my love i cant convey
give to you all that i have but that still wouldn't do
to express the way that i feel for you
no distance great, no none to far
to get back to the place you are
my life for you i would freely give
for you're the reason that i live

love shines through

when i'm with you love, i breath you in
you lift my soul, give me hope again
in your arms i find my hiding place
you help me through life's storms i have to face
your voice it calms my weary heart
when i'm by your side my cares depart
in your eyes, your love for me shines through
know with all i am i love you too

loose ourselves

skin so soft, your lips like wine
body heaven sent, your eyes divine
my love grows stronger every day
over my heart you now hold sway
my desire for you an eternal flame
it washes over me, a white hot rain
stay with me forever, in this dream let us reside
loose ourselves in this love, in each others arms we will hide

amazing

amazing woman, mesmerized, my heart you have captured
amazing angel, moments with you, spellbound, enraptured
amazing your eyes, so full of life, so vibrant, so blue
amazing your lips, your kisses still wet on my tongue, my soul subdued
amazing your face, elegant, beautiful, aglow in the pale moonlight
amazing your skin, so soft, so subtle, to caress it my hands delight
amazing your voice, so sweet, so alive, stirs my soul when you call my name
amazing your body, gracefully flowing, enchanting, ignites in me a burning flame
amazing woman, captivated, longing for just a touch from your hand
amazing angel, at your feet i lay down, my heart you command

desire

naked in each others arms, we give way to passions fire
our souls feverishly trying to become one, caught up in desire
your eyes they bid me come inside, sparks fly off your tongue
our yearnings now made manifest, this dance of love begun
mouths and hands seek out hidden things, no boundaries have been set
no pride, no shame, nothing taboo, only each others pleasures met
i feel you tremble now beneath me, into rapture you give way
spent, i melt inside you, entwined with you i lay

arms open wide

take my hand, come walk with me
i will try to understand, wont you help me to see
this pain you hide down deep in your heart
in me confide, allow the healing to start
talk to me, let my love dry your tears
your rock i will be, help you overcome all your fears
when you need a friend, just call out to me
on me you can depend, i'm here for you, my love always free
just look deep into my eyes and in them you'll know
there is no disguise, my feeling for you real, that they will show
just give me a chance, i will be the love of your life
through this life we can dance, wash away all of your sorrow and strife
arms open wide, lets fly away to the stars
in our love we can hide, the world will be ours

rapture

what is this place
have i died and now find myself caught up in the heavens
for surely this is an angel who's legs now encircle me
or is this hell, me at the mercy of some demon who has laid hold upon my soul
heaven, hell, right, wrong, black, white, its all the same
I'm drawn to this place
moth throwing myself into your flame
river relentlessly emptying myself into your sea
as we give ourselves over to life's oldest of dances
this moment in time, this one aching moment
at once pleasure , pain, agony, ecstasy
we two feverishly trying to become one
sweat mingling
mouth heavy on mouth
hands clinching each others tight
i enter you, rapture
time stops, or does it just now begin

lonely nights

i die a little more each day
you took your love and went away
my soul cries out for none to hear
you've gone forever that much is clear
now darkness falls, chokes out the light
only days filled with sorrow and long lonely nights
one day perhaps i will love again
despair my companion until then

heavy

you threw my love away like i meant nothing to you
just walked away without a word, what was i supposed to do
i didn't see it coming, i cant say i was prepared
i thought that we were happy, i really thought you cared
shouldn't have told you that i loved you, should have kept it locked inside
then we would still be together, you right here by my side
those three words were like a curse to you, weighing heavy on your heart
like a knife they ripped into your soul, like a wedge drove us apart
you were not ready, i should have known, should have left things be till the time was right
now its too late, from my arms you've flown, left with only sorrow that i cannot fight

when you fall

your heart is stained with much regret
filled with pain that you cant forget
the hurt you feel cant be undone
cant break away no matter how far you run
so much sadness lingers, buried deep down inside
with no one left to turn to, in whom do you now confide
i'm still standing here waiting, always watching over you
it hurts to watch you throw your life away but what else can i do
you know that i love you and will wait for you, all you have to do is call
but i know i will wait a lifetime, watch you crash and burn, no way to catch you when you fall

when you are ready

you walk alone down life's winding road, unwilling to give your heart away
a free spirit, a rebel, a vagabond and that is how you intend to stay
men before have tried to tame you, to keep you locked in chains
but their cages couldn't hold you, always escaping from their reins
angel i don't want to change you, i want you to be free
i want you to live your life out load, to be all you want to be
i'm here for you every step you take, you never have to walk alone
and one day when you are ready love, here in my arms you will find a home

invite me inside

i pay the price for whats been done to you by other men who have gone before
i try to love you but you wont let me in, if i get to close you slam the door
lied to, cheated on, abused, thrown away, your trust is gone, i cant break through
i love you more than anything but you just run away, what am i supposed to do
cant you see that i'm different, that i mean no harm, that i only want to win your hand
i try and try to break down your walls, tell me how do i make you understand
your love to me a precious thing, all i have to you i would gladly give
but you wont leave behind your painful past, take a chance on me, yourself forgive
please hear my words, don't shut me out, i come to you arms open wide
don't leave me standing out in the cold, follow your heart and invite me inside

dead man walking

my strength has left me, i grow tired and weak
no one to turn to for the comfort that i seek
these burdens that i carry have grown to great for me to bear
not a single friend to be found, seems like nobody cares
i dont know how much more i can take, this pain will not relent
just a dead man walking with no time left to repent
my final chapter, no pages left to turn, my stories reached its end
will anyone notice, leaving nothing behind, into the depths of hell i now descend

happy duck

walking chaos, random mess, your beauty from the world you hide
wanderer, rebel, walk the razors edge, where you go you alone decide
your heart kept hidden, locked away, yours to give, no mans to break
you wont be shackled, cant be tied down, only you will choose which road to take
behind your camera lens true freedom found, the sky awaits you to take wing
your words they tickle my eager ears, each day spent longing to hear you sing

again for you...smile : )

alone in the dark, swimming in whats left of your broken dreams
where do you go from here, your life coming apart at the seems
friends and lovers you've trusted, they have all let you down
used up and abused you, then walk away while you drown
at what point did things get so bad, when did you sink so low
left with only empty hands and a empty heart, what do you have to show
you think that you're finally moving forward, but you've just been chasing your own tail
doesn't matter at all how hard you try, seems like you're just destined to fail
don't let this darkness that you find yourself in swallow up your light
life may be hard and you may not win but don't you give up without a fight
angel pick yourself up off the floor and dust off your broken wings
you may be broken, bruised and battered and i know your wounds still sting
but i'm reaching out my hand to you, you may be lost but you don't have to walk alone
i will help you find your song again, i'll make sure that you find your way back home

never

i find myself drawn to you like moth to flame
we are worlds apart, unclear what i should do
do i dare to tell you how i feel in hopes that you may feel the same
or do i let it go unsaid and these things i feel try to subdue
i've never held your hand in mine, never felt the warmth of your embrace
never gazed into your angel eyes, never tasted the sweetness of your kiss
but in my dreams i've held you many times, every night haunted by your face
am i a fool for how i feel, should i sing to you, should i insist
or should i just let this go and with my dreams just fade away
my words of love kept in my heart, never to fall upon your ears
never giving you a chance, never knowing what you'd say
here i sit wrapped up in my thoughts, just trying to choke back my tears

no one left but me

so many failures, so many mistakes
hurt so many people, how many hearts must i break
never showing remorse for the damage i've done
just take what i want then get up and move on
and oh what a tangled web that i weave
told so many lies i don't know what to believe
the charade is over as i descend to my hell
alone here with my wicked lies with no one left but me to tell

side note: this isnt about me...i was thinking about someone else when i wrote it...thank you

dont hide away your light

why do you hide inside your broken wings
why does the world no longer hear you sing
filled with doubt your worry takes control
no peace to be found for your poor and tortured soul
you paint on a smile but you cant hide the pain
cant leave the past behind you, too many secrets, too much shame
these demons you don't have to face alone, i'm right here if you need a friend
you can talk to me about your fears, just reach out and take my hand
you have so much life ahead of you, don't hide away your light
don't give up on yourself so soon, don't you quit without a fight

melting

senses heightened, hearts on fire, our souls melting into one
time stops, bodies intertwined, moon colliding with the sun
in your eyes i'm swimming, in your kiss i drown, a death so raw, so sweet
this longing, this aching, this all consuming need, in each others arms complete
your fingers burn, they rake my skin as i enter into your flame
hearts are pounding, gasping for breath as you cry out my name
passion builds, our bodies groan, to be closer, even closer still
we lay entangled, our love is spent, our desires now been fulfilled

time

time is no friend of mine, not time just doesnt care
see how it mocks me, watch it as it jeers
time wont let me forget you, wont allow me to move on
time just shoves you in my face to remind me that your gone
they tell me time can heal all wounds, but it likes to sit and watch me bleed
so hungry for my sadness, laughing all the while it feeds
time wont let me run and hide, relentless like the hounds of hell
no my pain wont seem to go away, its ache i've grown to know so well

starting over

summer breeze cools my skin, sun warm upon my back
today i'm starting over, time to get my life back on track
i don't know where i'm going but i know where i've been
i've been playing a fools game for so long now and its a game i just cant win
mistakes made, more than i can say, myself alone to blame
veered off the path so many times, its hard to bear the shame
time to put that all behind me now, to give myself another chance
wont ever know what life has in store for me if i don't show up for the dance

sunsets

we sit alone, your hand in mine
our fingers gently intertwined
your head my shoulder gladly bears
the smell of lavender in your hair
your breathing softly on my chest
your gentle touch, your sweet caress
no words are spoken, no nothings said
our eyes express our love instead
as the sunlight slowly fades away
here in my arms, my angel, say you'll stay

turn the page

the silence screaming in my ears

the darkness blinding to my eyes

sit here drowning in my tears

your gone and i'm left to ponder why

its as if time stopped when you walked out the door

my heart quit beating, no air to breath

pictures of us lay strewn upon my floor

the pain so great i cant believe

what made you leave, why did you run

you couldn't spread your wings inside this cage

now a new chapter in your life's begun

but i just cant seem to turn the page

wet dream

you and your flavored vodka, me and my fruity wine
we've been sitting here for hours but were not keeping track of time
your pink hair blowing in the breeze, your pretty face aglow
our stilt house fading into darkness as the sun is sitting low
dave matthews playing in the background, turkey dogs roasting on the fire
to sit here lazy, toes in the sand is all that we desire
your funky dog chases after gulls as the tide starts rolling in
you turn and whisper in my ear, tomorrow can we take the boat back out again

if your out there jacie this ones for you baby

what are you waiting for

what happened to that pretty smile of yours more radiant than the moon and stars

now covered with a veil of anxious thoughts and the open wounds of ancient scars

so much life still lies ahead of you, embrace every moment and live it well

so much to be thankful for, blessed in so many ways and yet your troubles only seem to swell

don't let these feelings drag you down, don't let them pull you deeper into the mire

pick yourself up, take a deep breath and dive head first into the fire

lift yourself up on angels wings and high into the clouds you'll soar

rise up and take all life has to give, go on get out there, what are you waiting for

a piece of me

i still think about you now and then, about the morning when we met
like a picture carved into my heart, a day that i will not forget
your amazing eyes, that beautiful smile, you still haunt me in my dreams
our first kiss it took my breath away, sometimes i still cant breath it seems
i know that i was not supposed to fall in love, and my love it made you run away
but i don't regret the way i felt and i still feel the same way today
i hope you think of me from time to time and that it brings a smile upon your face
know that when you left you took a piece of me, a piece of me i cant replace

good bye

we would sit there talking about nothing, underneath the dark night skies
just you, me and the moon with your crazy dog chasing after fireflies
i swear i would sit there spellbound, just listening to you for hours
mesmerized by your voice as it washed over me like a sweet summer shower
i think that its your kiss that i miss most of all
your lips pressed close to mine, into perfect bliss i would fall
i miss the way that you looked at me, your eyes would draw me in
each time i gazed into those oceans of blue, i would fall i love again
the smell of your skin when i held you close, that could be what haunts me the most
sometimes i wonder if you were really here at all or just someone out of my dreams, a phantom or a ghost
i think about you now and then and it always makes me smile
you made such a difference in my life, i'm glad to have had you here with me if only for a little while

separate ways

i woke up this morning, packed my things up so i could leave
when i stepped foot out the door i could finally breath
like a weight had been lifted off of my drowning soul
all this time spent in your cage it had finally taken its toll
you know i still love you but its been just to much to take
each day that i stay, just another day that my heart breaks
for far to long i've played your fool, a part i played so well
cant believe what you put me through, my hearts seen its share of hell
all you know how to do is take, you just cant bring yourself to give
today i break free from your chains, to much life left for me to live
hurts so bad to walk away but only hurting worse if i was to stay
its time for me to let you go, for us to go our separate ways

slow down

be still my heart, slow down, dont run away

take a deep breath, here in this moment stay

every sight, every smell, every touch, every taste

relax, take it all in, there is no need for haste

a life lived too fast isn't really a life lived at all

take in every moment no matter how small

wont see the forest for the trees if you don't open your eyes

each moment GODS gift, embrace it, don't miss out on the prize

just me alone

this day began just like any other day

just me alone trapped inside these walls

walls i built to hide the pain

the pain that ripped my world apart

sun doesn't shine

birds don't sing

colors gone only black and grays

my friends all see me laugh and smile

no one to watch as i choke back the tears

this hurt i bear, i bear alone

it weighs me down

it breaks my back

they say that time can heal all things

but time is not a friend of mine

i will fight my way out of this fog

for fight my way is what i must do

my life didn't end when you moved on

but it seems i die a little more each day

pick myself up

move forward

try not to look back

just me alone trapped inside these walls

please

i'm trying hard to make you see

that i'm not the man i used to be

that man is gone who made you cry

who left you alone to wonder why

no more hateful words that bite and sting

now only words of love to you i'll bring

these arms once used to push you away

only long to hold you night and day

please forgive me angel, let me back in

give me a chance to earn your love again

come what may

sunlight glistening in your hair, rainbows lighting up the sky
raindrops dripping off the leaves, meadows filled with butterflies
on a blanket under that old tree where i carved our names so long ago
your eyes still shining, your smile just as bright, skin no less lovely, face aglow
our love has stood the test of time, only growing stronger everyday
i give my heart to you forever and i will stand beside you come what may

break free

so tired of all these games you play, of all your wicked lies

trust i place in you, been betrayed but why am i surprised

sweet words of love you sang to me, like honey off your tongue

now only poisoned darts and hateful things, quite a different song is sung

i said i would love you forever but forever ends today

your spell over me now broken, watch me as i walk away

you took everything that i had to give but my hearts not yours to keep

break free from this cage that you've bound me in, pain you've sown now yours to reap

wishing in the dark

denim shorts, old t-shirt, sitting barefoot on a swing

we would sit and talk for hours, about nothing, about everything

sun fades low behind the trees, moon and stars light up the sky

crickets play for us a serenade as we watch the fireflies

wish this night could last forever, that i could stop the sands of time

for our love to last a lifetime, your hand held tight in mine

to late

hate is such a bitter word yet hate is what you feel for me
so long your feelings gone unheard, i wouldn't listen, i couldn't see
i remember now every word you said, your picture in my trembling hands
i cry alone wishing i were dead, my broken heart finally understands
you gave me everything you could, you fought so hard to save the love we had
only caring about my own needs, didn't care to see, didn't realize that things had gotten so bad
i see clearly now but its far to late, you're finished talking, that bridge has been burned
took you for granted and sealed my fate, that books been closed, no pages left to turn

silken words

like a spider you lured me with your silken words, to late to see the danger near
tangled deep inside your web of lies, was blind but now your intentions clear
you fucked me over for the fuckings sake, took all i had but still thirst for more
my heart, my soul, you took everything, for you it was never enough of that im sure
i drank deep the wine in your poisoned cup, i choked it down your pill
my love bled dry cast down to hell, what a fool i am to love you still

not over yet

to scared to move, can barely breath
locked in your room, dont want to leave
so many mistakes, so many bridges burned
not sure who you can call a friend, don't know where you can turn
i know that life has got you down but don't you dare give up
just call my name and i'll be by your side whenever things get rough
my shoulder you can cry on, my arms a hiding place
i will keep you safe from harm when your demons you must face
dark angel don't you quit, your life's not over yet
put your past behind you, let me help you to forget

memories

i search for my lover in the cold, dark recesses of my mind
lost and alone, thorns prick my flesh
i cry out to her from my longing heart but no answer
her voice silent now, cold and still
my weary eyes strain for but a glimpse of her sun that once ruled over my skies
gone now, ripped from my sight
all is made black, only shadows remain
like a blind man, my hands reach out to touch, to hold, to feel her warmth once more
nothing, left stumbling, wandering aimlessly, broken
wait, there, a tiny flame burning in the distance
small, unquenchable, smoldering hot
my lover gone now, her memory still carried in my heart

fault my own

i blame myself for all my pain
the fault my own how could i not see
of you only broken promises and lies remain
oh what a fool i've turned out to be
i trusted you, believed every word you said
but trust to you just an empty word
betrayed, you left me alone for dead
my hands now shaking, my vision blurred
a lesson learned and you taught it well
be careful to whom you give your heart
you promised me heaven, delivered me into hell
i gave you my soul and you tore it apart 

wonder of it all

looking back on my life i have to shake my head and laugh
all the mess i've gotten into, always took the roughest path
things i've seen, all the places been, the wonder of it all
friends made, love found, love lost, times so happy, times i fall
live my life wide open, everyday three sheets to the wind
looking back at all the memories made, i would do it all again

my salvation

touch my heart and take away this pain
let your love fall down on me like rain
kiss away all of my doubts and fears
let your angels song caress my ears
take my hand, be my shelter from life's storms
in your eyes i find my hiding place, my salvation in your arms

a place to hide

hands are shaking, knees are weak as i stand and watch you walk away
my heart is pleading for you not to leave, my lips cant find the words to say
didn't see this coming, took me of guard, what the hell am i supposed to do
i thought that you loved me, was it only a game, guess i knew nothing, a fool with no clue
you said it was you, it wasn't me, really now, what is that supposed to mean
did that make you feel better, make it easier for you to go and wipe our slate clean
where do i go from here, what do i do, i can feel the tears well up inside
lost here, trapped in my own skin, just wishing for someplace to hide

for a little while

cool breeze blowing through your long dark hair
a hint of your perfume floating gently in the air
in a little white dress, skin kissed by the sun
flowers falling from your hands as barefoot through the fields you run
eyes enchanting, full of life, wide opened like a child's
smiling like an angel, calling out to me, leaving me beguiled
memories of you kept safe inside my heart, when i think of you i smile

what i wouldn't give to go back to those days if only for a little while  

new beginnings

lying naked on the floor
tired of trying, don't want to cry anymore
your past a heavy load to bear
alone and broken to hurt to care
rise up and unfurl your tattered wings
from your pain know that hope eternal springs
learn to forgive yourself and let your heart mend
each day a new beginning, start to love yourself again

my retched heart

stagnant, rancid, rotting air
alone at these dull walls i stare
the light outside it hurts my eyes
but to you that will come as no surprise
my retched heart at my feet spilled out
you're not coming back, now there is no doubt
head in my hands, tears falling like rain
the fault was my own, to me goes the blame
now i left to ponder the love that i've lost
i pushed you away now i'm paying the cost

bewildered

your angry words they sting me, they tear into my ears
venom dripping off your once sweet lips as all reason disappears
your eyes are shooting daggers, your face contorted shades of red
i'm standing there bewildered as i try to process what you've said
your muscles taut for violence as you move in to take your prey
i just shake my head, that's it, i'm done as i turn and walk away

looking forward

you lay beside me sweetly in our bed
on my shoulder rest your sleeping head
the face of an angel, crooked smile
in the moons soft glow my heart beguiled
gently run my fingers through your hair
porcelain skin so soft, so smooth, so fair
i could stay like this forever, you make all my dreams come true
already looking forward to tomorrow and another night with you

loose these chains

i've tried so hard to leave you but just cant seem to let you go
your memory wont be shaken, still under your control
thoughts of you still haunt me, consume me night and day
my love for you just wont die, cant make it fade away
when you went away you took my heart, leaving me a hollow shell
i try so hard to forget you but my love for you prevails
from this pain i try to run away but no peace do i find
how long till you release me from your spell and loose these chains that bind

please darling

i can feel you with every breath i take
with every beating of my heart
i have loved you from the moment i saw your face
when our eyes met i knew that i was looking upon an angel
in that instant i lay my life down at your feet
all that i have, all that i am, all that i will ever be, i give it to you
one touch from your hand brings me to my knees
a kiss from your lips, new wine sweet upon my tongue
when making love to you, time stands still
just you and i lost in each others love, eternal
angel you are my light, my truth, my joy, my strength
these i words that i pen not nearly enough to express the way that i feel
look deep into my heart then you will know my love for you encompasses all
with every fiber of my being i cry out your name
my angel you are my one true love
to me you mean the world and so much more
please darling wont you say that you love me to

two little words

good bye
seems to me like a poor usage of words
try as i may i have yet to find anything good about it
perhaps next time you should try "fuck off", its more to the point don't you think
like a dagger how those two little words ripped into my heart
whats it been now a year, a little more, a little less
seems like forever, seems like just yesterday
you would think that i would be over you by now
put you behind me, moved on with my life
but i can still see your face as clearly as the day you left
your perfume still lingers, drifting sweetly in the air
in my minds eye i can still trace every subtle curve of your body
taste your kiss still wet upon my lips
do you ever think about me i wonder
what we had, the plans we made
do you ever remember me at all
or has all memory of me been erased from your mind
good bye
how easily those words slipped off your tongue
how can two little words hold such power
slamming into my chest like a freight train
leaving me breathless, broken, alone
how is it that after all this time i find myself still loving you
two little words, then you walked out of my life forever
let me leave you now with three, then i will go
these words hold far more power
if you remember anything of me remember this
as i spill out whats left of my heart, i leave you with "i love you"
and i hope those words hit you as hard as your words hit me
   

new life

curled up on your bed with your broken wings
what a woeful cry that this angel sings
the pain you feel is just too great to bare
too tired to try, just too hurt to care
dark angel wont you let me in your heart
let me kiss away your fears, let the healing start
let me help you learn to fly again
leave your past behind you, let your new life begin

my hell

sights, smells, taste, i remember them all
but the pain in my heart the most vivid of all
your memory still lingers, thick and heavy in my mind
in my dreams left to wander, deaf, dumb and blind
when you left you took with you my soul, broken now a hollow shell
my light, my sun, my heaven gone, left to burn here in my hell

been that long

has it been that long since i've seen your face
held your hand, felt your warm embrace
has it been that long since ive kissed your lips
felt the fire as it danced off of your fingertips
has it been that long since we walked in the park
heard you whisper my name as we made love in the dark
yes its been that long but to my heart it still feels like yesterday
you've been gone that long but the pain that you left just wont go away

walk away

i stand here with my heart ripped out as i watch you walk away
i want to call out to you but i don't have the words to say
know its best to let you go, though it tears me up inside
we just couldn't seem to make it work no matter how hard that we tried
i will remember you forever and i will smile when you cross my mind
to me you are my one true love and in my heart you'll always shine

i turned

i turned to look but you were gone
no time to wonder what went wrong
i cant believe that things could change so fast
i always thought that our love would last
my sunshine so quickly changed to rain
my joy has been replaced by pain
nothing left for me to do but cry
without my heart my soul will die

lingers

oh where is this woman who my heart holds so dear
i cry out to her but she no longer hears
i pushed and i pushed, now shes out of my reach
she tried and she tried but my walls could not be breached
her love she gave all, everything she had unselfishly
but i never gave back, i was to blind to see
now shes gone, like sand slipping through my fingers
i cry as my heart breaks, for my love for her still lingers

trying

trying to forget you, trying to move on
trying to live my life without you, now that you are gone
trying but it hurts so bad now that were apart
trying to make it through another day with this hole inside my heart

to sleep, to dream

in my dreams i see your face
you still wrap me in your sweet embrace
our love endures the test of time
my heart still yours, yours still mine
but when i wake your not by my side
you now only in my dreams reside

exposed

here i stand exposed, my heart spilled out for all the world to see
lost in my sorrow, cant let go, from your icy grip i just cant break free
sleepless nights, i toss and turn, your memory seared upon my mind
long empty days, thoughts of you, alone i wander dumb and blind
in the wind i hear you call to me, turn to look but your not there
sometimes i swear i catch the sent of your perfume gently blowing in the air
that day you left you took everything, my soul is now awash in black
all that i have left is the realization that you are never coming back

worthy

to much to soon, how hard your fall, the dreams you had all ripped away
everyone in whom you put your trust, each one your trust they did betray
all that's left now are your scars and tears as you try to carry on with life
now here you stand alone to face your fears, the silence cuts you like a knife
look into to my eyes, their share of pain they've seen, i know my love what you've been through
let my love wash away your sorrow, know that these works i speak to you are true
i offer you this battered heart, all of your burdens you can lay on me
good times or bad i'll never leave your side, of your trust i'm worthy and will always be

wondering

all hope is gone, all that's left is pain, you left me a broken man
you went away without warning, with no good-bye, i cant begin to understand
i though our love was forever but you had other things on your mind
i sit here now, lost and alone, wondering how could i have been so blind
hope your happy with this mess you've made, this hole you cut into my heart
i should just move on, try to forget you, i just don't know where i should start

game over

alone i stand to face the world my heart ripped out oh how i bleed
my life in ruins laid at my feet, every thing's been shattered all my wants and needs
i had thought your love for me was real, but i thought wrong so now i cry
to you this was all some stupid game, everything you said was just a lie
its hard to sit here knowing what a fool i've been
but a fool i was, game over, that's it, i guess you win

broken wings

left alone with all your demons, they scream inside your head
no one left for you to turn to , you think you may as well be dead
choices made, they are always there to haunt you
you cant move forward past your shame
your dreams have all been shattered, only emptiness remains
afraid to love, afraid to trust, each day you face alone
your burdens so hard to carry, your sorrow cuts you to the bone
dark angel don't give up on life, pick yourself up off the floor
rise up and spread your broken wings and learn to fly once more

want you

always wanting more, restless, never satisfied
i hitched my heart onto your comets tail and you took me for a ride
did you know how much i loved you, i doubt you even care
one day lovers, next day gone, me left to wallow in despair
i had thought you were a wish come true, i'd found an angel or so it seemed
now you've become my nightmare, you still haunt me in my dreams
your gone now, you've moved on, my heart in pieces on the floor
i try so hard to forget you, but i just seem to want you more

i wont give up

these walls you've built are high and strong
i've been trying to climb them for oh so long
your trust i just cant seem to win
i knock and knock but you wont let me in
someone before me broke your heart, to me that much is clear
if only you would take a chance on me i would wipe away all your tears
i'm left here now to pay the price for something i didn't do
but i will wait on you forever, no i wont give up on you

falling from grace

an angel fell from the heavens into my arms
how beautiful she was to behold, wondrous in shape and in form
her eyes vibrant blue orbs piercing my very soul
her voice the sweet sound of spring time ringing in my ears
mere man, i was not worthy to stand in her presence
yet she reached out to me and took my hand
our love forbidden, boundaries set, walls built up around our hearts
my heart would not be bound, it burned for her with an unquenchable fire
i would not speak the words but i loved her, i worshiped at her feet
one day as suddenly as she had appeared she was gone
no tender embrace, no sweet kiss good bye, just gone
back to the heavens from whence she had come
and with her went my heart
gone my sun, my moon, my stars, all was washed in black
lost, no compass, wondering alone in the darkness that now consumed me
no peace to be found, fallen from grace

darkness falls

darkness falls softly on my eyes
this darkness i willingly embrace
for with the darkness come the dreams
sweet dreams of my lover swimming carefree in my thoughts
in my minds eye i can see the elegant lines of her body as its laid out before me
her subtle curves, porcelain skin to delicate to touch
shimmering eyes calling to me from the darkness
if she where only real, to hold, to touch
to feel the warmth of her body against mine
to gaze longingly into the cool blue depths of her eyes
to loose myself in her kiss
but for now its just a dream, a beautiful sweet dream
as darkness falls slowly on my eyes
to sleep, to dream

how : (

i cant eat, cant sleep, all i think about is you
you took your love and went away, now i don't know what to do
i try to pretend that i'm o.k., that i'm over you, moved on
i just cant seem to shake this pain, now that you are gone
my friends say that i will be alright, that i will find somebody new
but how can i find someone else, when the only one i want is you

dark days

dark are my days, darker still are my nights
the day that you left, you took all the light
sun, moon, stars all fade to black
my life now in ruin, cant seem to get back on track
i wander through life like i'm lost in a haze
i try to move on but your memory stays
the birds hush their singing, the flowers no longer bloom
everything now just shades of grey, shadows and gloom
i miss everything about you, but when you left you left for good
no amount of my wishing is going to bring you back, that much is finally understood

for me

His blood has washed me white as snow
there on the cross His love for me did show
a crown of thorns placed on His head
it was for my transgressions that He bled
beat beyond recognition and nailed to a cross
for all my sins He paid a terrible cost
so that i could live, He laid his life down
now for me in heaven waits a robe and a crown

still lingers

i had hoped that i would be over you but its clear i love you still
when you went away you left a void that i just cant seem to fill
your memory tattooed on my heart, i cant erase you from my mind
tried to forget you in other lovers arms but no comfort do i find
there is still a hint of your perfume that still lingers in my bed
sometimes i swear i hear your voice but its only in my head
i cant seem to shake all this pain, you've carved your name upon my soul
the further i try to run from you, the more it seems i cant let go

far away

my love for you is strong my dear but your so far away
my thoughts are filed with only you, they consume me night and day
everything that i have for one kiss from your lips is all that i desire
just to feel the touch of your fingertips sets my blood on fire
if only to look once more upon your lovely face
if i could be lost again in your sweet embrace
to be caught up in your passion, our lovers bliss
all these things and more my soul doth miss
know that my love is forever, though we may be worlds apart
you are here with me always, kept close in my heart

let me in

i tell you that i love you but my words fall on empty ears
your too afraid to let your guard down, you've cried so many tears
i wish that i could make you see that these words i say are real
you need only look into my eyes to know just how i feel
i'm not like all those other men who left you with a broken heart
who took the love you gave for granted and ripped your world apart
open up, please let me come inside, wont you take a chance on me
my sweet angel, to me you are everything, held tight in my arms you'll see

its over

my soul is like a wasteland made barren by your hands
drained of life, heartbroken, your wicked ways i now understand
i thought that i knew you, oh but little did i know
i never really knew you at all, you love was just for show
you took all that i had, always wanting more, never satisfied
me, well i was too blind to see, just went along for the ride
well i know you now and your kind of love i just don't need
better off with out your anger, your lying and your greed
i deserve something better, someone who loves me for me
someone who wont try to change me, make me what they want me to be
so go on now, live your life, its over, now i'm done
as for me, today's a new day, a new chapter in my life begun

searching

this old, tired heart is hardened, but He keeps on chipping away
He keeps calling out my name, but i just keep going astray
to busy with my own wants and needs to ever seek His will
looking in all the wrong places, but this void i cant seem to fill
my faults, they are many, but His mercy for me abounds
everything that i am searching for, at the foot of His cross it can be found

love is blind

teardrops running down your face as you're telling me good bye
funny, you're the one who's leaving me, shouldn't i be the one to cry
i thought that you said you loved me, i guess i was confused
please excuse me if i'm angry but i feel a little used
you took all i had to offer, now you're walking out my door
now knowing what you are all about, glad i didn't offer more
good bye, just leave, don't worry about me, i promise i will be fine
next time i'll know to open my eyes, my mother told me love was blind

who i am

i've travelled down many a road, and oh the things i've seen
all the pleasure and the pain that this life has to bring
i've swam in the ocean and ive climbed mountains high
run barefoot through dew soaked meadows, chasing after fireflies
i've made love beneath the starry skies, danced by the light of the moon
i've kissed the lips of many a pretty girl and watched love fade away too soon
played for hours smiling in the rain, soaked up my share of sun
sometimes i sit and just shake my head at all the things i've done
looking back now, i wouldn't change a thing, ive done the best i can
tried to live my life with no regrets, these things have made me who i am

it's been awhile

it's been awhile since i've seen your pretty face
since i've held your hand or felt your warm embrace
had your deep blue eye's burn into my soul
and having looked into them, lost all control
to have felt your lips pressed close to mine
the taste of honey, the finest wine
felt the sparks dancing off our tongues
our skin on fire, our bodies one
in my mind it seems like yesterday
you memory kept safe, in my heart forever stay

i'll be there

your hearts been broken, i understand
i've been there before, let me hold your hand
tell me your troubles, give me your burdens, your pain
i will carry them for you, i will never complain
a shoulder you can cry on, your words wont fall on empty ears
a trusted friend you can rely on, let me wipe away your tears
you can count on me, good times and bad, i wont ever run and hide
when you need me just call my name, i'll be there, arms open wide

doesn't matter

i once loved a girl with all of my heart
but fate was determined to keep us apart
our love was forbidden but i didn't care
still i didn't tell her, my feelings i wouldn't share
not wanting to burden her with confessions of love
never told her she was my angel, my goddess, my dove
she left without a word, not even saying good-bye
i didn't try to follow, just let my heart slowly die
i still think about her now and then but i doubt she thinks of me
i guess it doesn't matter how much you love, some things just aren't meant to be

looking forward

wind in my face, feels cool on my skin
a new chapter in my life is about to begin
i will climb every mountain always wearing a smile
sing out with joy in my heart, mile after mile
you wont catch me crying, i wont let life pass me by
i will reach out and take it with a gleam in my eye
i will live life to the fullest, drink in every last drop
always looking forward, never behind me for time doesn't stop

everything

every morning when i wake up and see your smiling face
everything i've ever wanted, my hopes, my dreams fall into place
you took this broken heart of mine and with your love you made it whole
you made me feel alive again, restored my weary soul
i don't know what you see in me, but i know this cant be wrong
i want to spend my life with you, i know that's where i belong

onward

wind in my face, sun at my back as i travel down life's long and winding trail
not sure what waits around the next corner, will i succeed or will i fail
always seeking out perfection, but perfection never found
try to lift myself up, make things better but in this mire i am bound
though the hills may be steep and life's thorns they tear my skin
i will keep on moving forward, i am determined that i will win
life may knock me to my knees, pressing onward i will crawl
pick myself up, dust myself off, after each time that i fall
these hardships they shape me, build my resolve, make me strong
i WILL get to where im going, no matter how rocky the road, no matter how long